LaTreen Wa****ngton wrote:
> Hello Members,
>
> Not looking for sympathy, not looking for replies, not looking for
> forgiveness. I don't even want to come back and read this thread.
>
> Just wanted to tell you that that I've been a Grade AAA Asshole, and I
> wanted to apologize for making your lives miserable. A lot of my anger
> was from jealousy for the love you have for your relatives.
>
> My father is alive at least 3 months past his death date. He is
> wasting away with lung cancer and mesothelioma. During the 60's he
> used to cool welded parts in bins of asbestos fibers surrounded by
> asbestos curtains. Decades of smoking haven't helped.
>
> He's dying a slow, agonizing and painful death. At times I was not
> unhappy about his fate. In my opinion he has gotten back tenfold all
> the abuse he dished out to me and others. Enough is enough - the guy
> has suffered a lot, he's a shell of himself, and the only person who
> he will allow to take care of him is my Mother. She's going through
> her own hell.
>
> He won't talk to me or my sibling. Hasn't for years. Decades for his
> sister. I tried to reach out for 30 seconds on Good Friday. He refused
> to speak to me, telling me I "always was nothing but a god damned pain
> in the ass."
>
> He's got a "personality disorder." I now believe he can't help it, and
> there may be a part of him that actually does not want to be that way.
> He's my A****in Skywalker. (I don't think I have a personality
> disorder, I'm just a douche bag.)
>
> On a personal note, I have a severe back condition that needs surgery.
> It's messed up bad, I saw the MRI. I have been in severe pain since
> early May. I am very tempted to go to Home Depot, rent tools and
> operate on myself.
>
> If you can walk to the end of a parking lot and **** without effort
> you are a lot more blessed than me. :)
>
> Almost 2 weeks ago my leg on the "bad side" swelled up. I got a blood
> clot. That became a pulmonary embolism. I was told I had a 50/50
> chance of survival. I'm home, after an extensive hospital stay. I'm
> still not out of the woods and I have a strange, mysterious pain in my
> lower right side. I sincerely believe I might die any day.
>
> My wife has insurance, but if they get hinkey on us, I'll have to file
> for bankruptcy. It's money and when you ain't really got nothin' you
> don't have much to loose.
>
> I'm on blood thinners now and that might remain for the rest of my
> life. The medicine is a form of rat poison.
>
> So I am kind of sorry I was an asshole. I'm very sorry that I brought
> pain and sadness into the lives of others. I was sick and f*cked up,
> but that is not a good excuse in my book. I can't promise I'll never
> be an asshole again, but I prefer not to travel that path.
>
> I believe in a Christian Religion and that I will go to Heaven,
> because Jesus died for the sins of all men. I might have to spend
> 10,000 years in Purgatory, but if I go there, it's what I deserve.
>
> While I have been sick, a neighbor was nice to me and said we are
> supposed to do good things for each other.
>
> If I can make a request, PLEASE BE NICE TO THE PEOPLE IN YOUR FAMILY.
> Don't talk **** to each other. Don't swear at other people, don't
> threaten them.
>
> DON'T HIT OTHER PEOPLE. It ain't fun getting the crap beaten out of
> you and to live in fear.
>
> I don't know if I will come back here. It's like looking in a ****t-a-
> potty, you know it will be an unpleasant sight but you're still driven
> to take a peek. Discuss this in your Sanctuary.
>
> I'm firmly convinced there is karma. I also believe God takes care of
> things in his way, in his time.
>
> Thanks for reading this far. I don't want or deserve any
> congratulations on my insight.
>
> Be nice to each other.
>
> Thank God or whomever, every day for 10 things.
>
> Peace to you all. Hopefully the love we make will be equal to the love
> we take.
>
> LaTreen Wa****ngton
LaTreen,
I am so sorry that you have been going through this and apology
accepted. Please take care of yourself. (((()))))
--
Froggy
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