It's been at least a few years since I've posted here, and certainly
more since I was active in this group. Unfortunately, I'm stuck with
Google groups at the moment and it's hard to find the relevant posts
within all the crap. I tried to set up a personal ng thing, but the
lady I talked to with my internet provider doesn't even know what a
'newsgroup' is. How annoying.
So, I haven't been able to see if there is anyone I recognize still
around. If not, I will quickly introduce myself.
I first joined this ng in 2001 when I found out I was pregnant with my
first child. Tabi was born Oct. 4th, and passed away Oct. 15th. My
second pregnancy, spring 2003, ended in miscarriage at 8 weeks.
Shortly after, I left my husband.
Since then, I've spent the last few years with the biggest "what the
hell was I thinking????" idiot. I am now entering a new relation****p
with someone who is wonderful.
Which brings me here. No. I'm not pregnant. :P Not too long ago I
assumed I would not have the family I've always wanted. It was
difficult to accept. I cried a lot. I had just figured that by the
time I found someone I was willing to spend the rest of my life with
it would be too late (for me - I don't want to ttc after 40, personal
reasons). That's only 2 years (and one month) away.
Well, in walked my current boyfriend. Funny, I have known him for
about a year. And literally, he walked into work one day and my tummy
did a flipflop when I saw him. I haven't stopped thinking about him
since. We've been together for only 2 months now. The physical
chemistry is amazing. (Yowza!!) But I do think we have what it takes
to go beyond that.
Lately, I've been thinking about that 'family thing' again.
Obviously, it's far too early to have any discussions with him about
it, and he might not completely understand (being male). Right now,
I'm not really here to discuss ttc (hopefully one day). The biggest
thing that is worrying me is my age I guess. If he and I do take it
to that level of involvement (... that sounds so clinical and
unromantic! You know what I mean!) I would really like people to chat
with, and I was very comfortable here before.
So I guess that's that for now. Need to get ready for work.
xo
Spectre
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